Going Away, Finally!

Graduated, finally. Fulfilling a dream to go live overseas, what I have always wanted to do, is finally happening. Think I'm still in shock that I have made it. I have finally made it, and I am a little scared, a little nervous, and a lot excited to leave this place, leave everything for another country, another life, another culture, other tastes, smells, people, and places. Stepping out into the unknown, it is what I have always wanted for some reason--reasons really, some that I am aware of, and some reasons that I don't know how they got there in that place in my heart that seeks awareness and the knowledge of other people and places that apparently to some are not intriguing in the least. But there are others out there like me, there already out there, OUT THERE where I want to be, where, thank god, I am finally going to be, so help to get there. I'm tired of all the questions, just let me be, let me do this thing called My Life! Feel like I have been waiting forever for this to be, for me to finally get it all together, I think some never do, so I consider myself lucky. Now I am ready for the next dream...If I have had this dream since for so long and it is finally coming into fruition, then what is next? Ready for the next dream, whatever it is I can accomplish it step by step, day by day, hurdle by hurdle, finishing the race, this little Chickie may not finish first, but I will finish. Just like now, if I don't quit this place I would perish, so that is the final straw, happiness, the pursuit of happiness, personal fulfillment is a personal quest. I've been waiting my whole life so far since childhood for this moment in time, it is pretty momentous I must say...I must say, I must write and put so much into words that has been bottled up for so long. God I just can't wait to be on that damn plane, to land in another place, and stop only to be where I am supposed to be, and that is moving, moving ahead, straight on into the unknown. I don't want to know it for you, or by you, but my experience, my understanding of the world. So much out there to see and learn, taste and smell, and hold and navigate. So I'm blogging, oh yeah! That's where its at, get the nerves out, the anxieties. I'm not afraid at all of what's out there--no that is what I crave--I'm just afraid I might mess it up, and that is only a lack of confidence in myself, in my aptitude and strength, my will and drive to succeed in this life. I will be determined, and I will not perish, but thrive and grow, change and be rearranged my new people, different situations, life experience that I am so privileged to be witness. I'm going to read and write and be open to everything. I am so thrilled, and so blessed!